Archive for July 31st, 2013

July 31, 2013

One Too Many Things

by Tabitha Kidwell

I have this problem where I try to do one too many things. Like, I’ll wake up on time for church, be ready to head out the door with plenty of time, then think “I have time to unload the dishwasher” and then roll in halfway through the offering. Come on, Tabitha, the dishes can wait! Going to El Salvador this year was that one thing too many. I’m sure it would have been great, but it would have meant scrambling around the next 2 months to try to visit and apply to grad school programs, take the GRE, and do a giant pile of Peace Corps paperwork. I would have ended up not doing anything well. In addition, I had this lingering guilt about not being able to go to my cousin’s wedding in October. I know my family would understand, but I realized it wasn’t about that one event. It was about all the little events that happen everyday: football Saturdays, meeting friends for a run, watching TV with my grandma. I just want to be here for all that. So I will be – I am NOT going to El Salvador! Sorry, Keeping-Tabs fans, you will have to live vicariously through someone else.

Actually, most of you appear to be on my side. Seriously, just write a few self-pitying, panicky blogs, and you guys really step up. I got messages of support on nearly every communication platform: e-mails, texts, calls, facebook messages, wall posts, blog comments… (I’m still waiting for the carrier pigeon, but I hear those take longer). My uncle Link even invited me to dinner for a pep talk/intervention. I am reminded yet again of what amazing friends and family I have… and that I cannot possibly leave them again. At least for now…